I knew you when your skin was a blank canvas
I knew you when your soul was a flawless mirror reflecting the sunny sky
I knew you when you could still fly,
before your wings were clipped.
I knew you before the abuse harmed you...
turned you inside out.
I knew you through the dark years,
when your own hand reached up and became the abuser.
I knew you when the darkness snuffed your inner light out,
and you died inside.
I knew you in the zombie years,
where you walked and talked but were not there.
I knew you when you first sat on his couch and listened to his calm voice.
I knew you when he reached out his hand and said "You ARE worth saving"
I knew you when you thought he was lying.
I knew you when you stood with most of your feet over the edge
I knew you when nothing held you up and the lulling mermaid songs of the abyss beckoned you.
I knew you when you glanced over your shoulder and first looked at him,
as he repeated "You ARE worth saving"
I knew you as you slipped under the surface and all that held you was his words.
"You ARE a person of great value"
I knew you when you at last turned on your ears and really heard what he was saying.
I knew you when you stopped fighting the rope lowered down to save you,
when you stopped trying to hang yourself with it.
I knew you when the strength returned to your hands and you grabbed that rope.
I knew you as you fought and clawed your way out of the darkness
I knew you as you stripped bare the inner mirror and faced all the monsters in your reflection
I knew you when you battled with yourself
when the fights left you bloody and torn
I knew you when you fought to cut yourself free...when all you had to do was open the door and walk away.
I knew you when your skin was a map of scars
I knew you when your soul was a shattered mirror tentatively and shyly reflecting your soul
I knew you when you learned to fly,
I knew you when you learned your wings were healed.
I knew you when you took your power back
knew you when you live this all in one afternoon,
and over a years time too.
I knew you were not alone
I knew there were other struggling and fighting the same fights
now others know too.
I've always known you, even before you were born. I'll always know you. I'd know you anywhere!
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